It's 10:23 in the evening, and i can't sleep. I've been sitting in this chair in front of my PC for 8 hours straight. playing in facebook, reading, listening with some stupid "senti" songs. i'm still hurt, i'm still in the process of moving on, and i hate it!!! i'm freaking tired of it. i don't to lose you, i dont want to cry again.i'm missing you sooooo bad. I'm thinking of you more than 8 hours today, and damn tired of it. but every time i was alone and listening with this songs, i always reminded of you.
akala ko noon madali ka lang kalimutan. anjan ka sa malayo, and2 ako. hindi tau madalas magki2ta at magkakausap. pero bakit hanggang ngaun, ikaw pa rin ang laman ng puso at isip ko. ikaw pa rin ung hinahanap ko. ako pala ung adik. ako pala ung loko loko. hanggang ngaun hindi ko pa rin mabura lahat. hindi ko pa rin maalis yung nararamdaman ko sau. haii..
Now, i don't know how will i start this next paragraph because of a huge revelation of the previous paragraph. i have to admit that, not because i'm in hurt its because i have to. i need to tell you those things so i can release them in my heart.
sabi ng freestyle dun sa kanta nila " I'm missing you so bad. now that you're not by my side. i guess you could say its me who's hurting so bad. after all this time, after all that we've been through. baby aren't you hurting to?" sakto di ba? alam ko namn na ako ang may kasalanan ee. pinili ko to. i chose this situation. kaya ko lang naman to ginagwa, para hindi siya mabigat sa loob ko,.
now, i know i'm wasting your time, reading my message for you. sorry, for disturbing you, but i really need to do this for me to free myself from this situation. I'm happy na tinanggap mo pa rin akong kaibigan mo, even though na alam ko naiilang ka. but i hope our friendship will continue. di ba nga yun lng namn ung hinhiling ko from you. wala namn akong hinangad na iba. gusto ko nang mawala tong nararamdaman ko sau, para namn maka kilos na ako ng maayos. para maayos na ung lahat...pasensiya na tlga..
Now its 10:56. still crying. still in hurt. but trying to catch up those things for me. i hope i can move on, and keep the friendship between me and my friend. na miss ko lng tlga siya ng sobra sobra..
au revoir.
akala ko noon madali ka lang kalimutan. anjan ka sa malayo, and2 ako. hindi tau madalas magki2ta at magkakausap. pero bakit hanggang ngaun, ikaw pa rin ang laman ng puso at isip ko. ikaw pa rin ung hinahanap ko. ako pala ung adik. ako pala ung loko loko. hanggang ngaun hindi ko pa rin mabura lahat. hindi ko pa rin maalis yung nararamdaman ko sau. haii..
Now, i don't know how will i start this next paragraph because of a huge revelation of the previous paragraph. i have to admit that, not because i'm in hurt its because i have to. i need to tell you those things so i can release them in my heart.
sabi ng freestyle dun sa kanta nila " I'm missing you so bad. now that you're not by my side. i guess you could say its me who's hurting so bad. after all this time, after all that we've been through. baby aren't you hurting to?" sakto di ba? alam ko namn na ako ang may kasalanan ee. pinili ko to. i chose this situation. kaya ko lang naman to ginagwa, para hindi siya mabigat sa loob ko,.
now, i know i'm wasting your time, reading my message for you. sorry, for disturbing you, but i really need to do this for me to free myself from this situation. I'm happy na tinanggap mo pa rin akong kaibigan mo, even though na alam ko naiilang ka. but i hope our friendship will continue. di ba nga yun lng namn ung hinhiling ko from you. wala namn akong hinangad na iba. gusto ko nang mawala tong nararamdaman ko sau, para namn maka kilos na ako ng maayos. para maayos na ung lahat...pasensiya na tlga..
Now its 10:56. still crying. still in hurt. but trying to catch up those things for me. i hope i can move on, and keep the friendship between me and my friend. na miss ko lng tlga siya ng sobra sobra..
au revoir.
No comments:
Post a Comment