i'm back..

this past few days, i always want to go outside. I'll left our house by 7pm and return by 1am onwards. and i did it for several times. but yesterday was different. i don't know why. maybe my boss arrived yesterday from hongkong. they told me that my aura was different (maybe the new haircut) or maybe i'm still moving on. its been a long time since i didn't see my boss, but until now i can't overcome my fear and shyness.

last night they texted me that i should go outside and talked to them. and i did. but still i can't speak and i moved differently. i also noticed it. Marvin even teased me that "nagbago na daw ako". but i think i'm not. i'm in the mood last night, but the problem is i don't have any stories to tell.

i don't want this feeling. but i can't help it. i know i'm still in pain. i nkow i'm still in love. and i know i'm still moving on. doing the same things all over again and again.

napansin ko lang din na nagbago ung isa kong kaibigan. hindi siya ung nakilala kong kaibigan ee. parang nakikita ko na sa kanya kahapon ung tunay na tingin niya sa akin. i dont know. bhala na. isa lng namn ang naiisip kong sulusyon jan ee.pero i will sare this on my next blog (probably).

"ill take the rivers side, i'll take the happy times, i'll take the moments of disaster"

i loved this lines. very meaningful and i can relate. hai... love tlga oh.. nababaliw na ako.. hai..

to end this post, i must say that.. i need to moved on! short but meaningful.

ciao..!